You're a Good Read,

TRUST me! & about the game stop job, its already MINE<3 its mine i got it in a choke hold haha!

Pic of the day:


song of the day:

Mary J Blige- just fine [+lyrics]

song of the day:

I fken love CAMEROID.COM

http://cameroid.com/g/b270a8fd477b963488e958a66ffef327

The Sweetest Thing(On TV)...

Hmmm, i guess all i have to say is, "I hope i get the GameStop job." & "karaoke was a blast last night! 99 red balloons is the best song ever!!!!"


Picture of the Day:
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Song of the Day:

I Want You, Soooo Bad!

Canon VIXIA HF S11


OR

Nikon D500

First Friday (In a LONG Time) 10/2/09

So last night i had the opportunity of stopping by first friday, which i havn't been able to do since '09 started. After a slow night of walking around with my sister, i ran into the homies and that definately picked my night up. But i have to admit that even before that, it wasnt at all that bad. The gypsy corner definately had something going with a local Indie band called the rooks, &they were selling very pretty hair clips with little ceramic cupcakes glued into the middle of the flower. i bought one :) &i didn't go into all of the houses but the one i did go into wasn't a disappointment.

I was also happy to learn that first friday is again freeeeeeeeeeeee.
&near the end of the night, we met and took pictures with a lovely gay guy named jordan.
he was a sweet heart. Though my favorite part of the night, was being able to chain smoke all night, haha.

Home is where the Heart is...

&I left my "heart" in the San Fernando Valley with a friend of mine. That explains why i can never get used to the desert livin' & it might also explain why i don't have my very own set of keys, haha.

Song of the Day:


I don't know how i met you, i dont know why i can't turn around and say goodbye. =/




Hmmmm, well anyways, I can come to terms with believing that i won't be something great. Im very skilled with a pencil, and I'm pretty good with words, but thats as far as it can go for me. I can't hit a perfect note so i'll never be asked to sing with the band, haha, even though i'd get stage fright! Ahh, but i refuse to believe that I'm not a stepping stone, &I hope, against the bullshit around me about money and how livin aint easy, that my children will get everything they want in life. My son will learn every instrument he sets to learn. &I hope my daughter will be able to create such creatures that people can't afford NOT to buy them! &My kids are just going to be great. their going to be just beautiful. This I'd like to accept as the truth.

As I see it, a career in teaching really is one best suited for me. Not that I'm a failure, i know I'm beyond that! My life story tells me exactly the opposite of that. &my views on beauty and success and life, Id really like to share them. I mean EVERYONE carries insecurities in high school and its just silly. I know that not many people think the way i do, and Id like to help them to do so, cause honestly even when im super down, the words in my brain don't keep me happy from then on but they keep me breathing, and alot of times thats all you need, happiness is only a moment after patience. (something I've recently learned.)

Maybe after reading back at this later on, Im going to realize how stupid i sound, but for now, even though its not bestly put, or even following any kind of structure; I am satisfied.

Picture of the Day:

Should Still be standin'

11709 Long Beach Blvd. , Lynwood, CA (Earth Quake, Burned Down, Demolished)

Bunny Lake's Not There!

"Been Lookin', Been Swallowed." A Spoken Word Poem

That buzzin' neon lit city turned something on inside of me.
I can't explain it, its like the...
its like the words seem to flow right out of me
&into your ears and they mean something!
It's like the universe rediscovering jazz.
Like the kids in the corner spittin rhyme spray
for a dime every night of the week
to cash in for a new pair of reeboks, nikes
or maybe a clean pair of classic adidas.
And the older lady on the top floor of my apartment building getting punched around,
she's inspired me, to make up my mind and
gain strength to declare outloud that i will never
get pushed around or blinded by the false hopes and loves.
and so i'm going to be not the soil,
nor the seed
but the root and the rose growing from that root.
And now im going to be beautiful!
Oh ladies, Oh Ladies we are beautiful.
&since i too have felt the beauty
ive been swallowed into twice worth of 3-Dimension.
Never could you feel lesser tension.
water sliding down glass and its collection on grass.
I can feel that energy's vibration.
No more half-hearted singin' among trees
&no more soul-less lyrics
My joy will be contagious.
Carried through the humming of birds and bees
I hope soon you too shall feel as heavenly as me.

I'm swallowed by the Bokeh.

The sound of thunder was my First Wonder.

Ive been listenin' to the sky. oh, she is so passionate when speakin of the things she sees. &as she drops down below my horizon she tells me of all the dirty little things you've done when you thought no one was watchin' and her face turns into a combination of pinks, yellows &oranges. I've been feelin' God's grace through the clouds. The fact of the matter is that God is very graceful. He's offered me some, but I'd never give it back. Ive been thinkin to the sky again. &I'm thinkin i miss being your best friend.

Paint the Town with your smile NiteRiders<333

my little cousin valerie is a sweetheart<3